cera-jeanne's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Count Down Things are ticking along and here I am finding myself in my last few days of my 20's...In a few short days I will be 30 years old. Hard to believe, really. I have been enjoying the emotional side of pregnancy for the past week or so. It seems it doesn't take much for me to feel upset and cry or to get really angry. I know it won't last but it is still hard to deal with, especially since I am working full time and have to really reign in my emotions while I'm at work. Our receptionist quit and rather than hire someone to replace her they decided to make me take over her job - while continuing on with my own. Despite promises of "being in the process of finding someone" I have yet to see an interview take place and am starting to feel less than enchanted with this whole thing. I know I should not let it bother me when my work piles up - but it does and things that didn't used to cause me to feel stressed out seem to stress me out these days. I know mostly it has to do with hormones and a big big part of it is I find myself lying awake for hours at a time at night instead of sleeping. I wish I was able to not work or work part time even from here on out in the pregnancy. I am just so tired and my patience levels are pretty much non-existent. Especially when I am working two positions, both of which are very demanding. The only thing I can keep telling myself is to just do what I can. Remember to put myself and the baby first and try not to care about work. I only have 10 weeks left until I am going on mat leave (and only 13 until the baby arrives!!) so the light at the end of the tunnel gets closer every day. J and I are going away this weekend for our birthday and I can't wait. It will be nice to be away, even if it is just for the weekend. The baby is growing steadily and is more active than ever. It always seems to know when I am feeling down and gives me little reassuring pokes during those times. I feel stronger having the baby with me, like the two of us hold more power than I do on my own. It's hard to explain. It seems funny I rely on my baby when it should be the other way around. I can't wait to meet this little fascinating person. 2:02 p.m. - July 23, 2008 *HUGS* TOTAL! give cera-jeanne more *HUGS* Get hugs of your own ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 
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